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Giving up

Slowly, Steadily,it creeps
Eating me up from within
Be oblivious I say to self
But my self doesn't pay heed.
Giving up slowly I realise,
it is a slow poison, working
cunningly maliciously in me.

I have to combat, I say
running helter-skelter,
finding my refuge in 
spirits, herb and smoke, 
my antidotes.

Now, my body harbours two beings
One, closer to that supernatural
and damaged by thoughts. Other,
plunged in thoughts far from Above
supported by fellow free spirits.

Behind all those smiles, leaps
fooleries, cackles, 
lies a pool of tears.
Pat on the back to self, each day
for the commendable show put up.

Now, its time. "Enough!", 
said the softer voice.
time to break open and 
stand up against the enemies.
Time for the one to crush
the other being from within. 

But somewhere the softer being 
knows that it ain't so easy
and with that thought, it
crumbles, giving it all up.


  

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Reminiscing experiences

I know not anymore what I spoke
Albeit I know what I felt.
Memory is becoming a pariah to the mind
It is your touch that reminds me
of who I am and what want to be.
The early morning vulnerabilities,
emotional and physical
remind me of the time we had,
of the your breath,soothing me
back to bed.
And then, anxiety creeps,
Will the azure of the sea 
and sky ever be one?
Distance is the horizon,
you, the limitless sky and
I, the never-ending sea.

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Lost hope

Thoughts scattered in my head 
Like the smoke of my cigarette 
Here one moment 
Gone the next. 

What's there for me 
I know not. 
To seize the day 
Or cease to be. 

Spreading happiness around me
Is just a reflection 
Of what I want to be. 
Trying to fill in the gorge 
Left behind deep in me. 

Someone come to rescue
Before its too late. 
Lest I forget the world 
I once wanted to create 

Hoping for the light
In the end of the tunnel. 
In hoping for the light to
Bring back that sun 
I have lost the hope that once 
Adorned my smile. 


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Unfaltering Faith

 

Battered self
loathed self
worthless self.
Incomplete phrases,
few words defining self.
Hold your ground they said,
spilt all over self.
Where to go
what to do
What is next?
words resounding in my head.

Hovering around in blank space
when things around are crumbling.
how shall collect all the 
broken pieces of me
and patch them together to find my ground?

I am like  the particles of dust
All over and yet no where.
Waiting for that drop of rain 
to settle me down,
having found my ground.