In the midst of my finding my happiness and peace, I have encountered an hurdle, that called family. Family is something you can ignore if you’re born with it. Well sometimes you can make a family on the way as you make some deep friendships. But the family that you are born with can be the most warn and yet the most cold place you could be.
Right now, I am in the most cold place. A place I don’t recognise, a place I feel stifled in, the place I want to quit forever. Right now, I see no reason to live. the support system that I thought I had, isn’t there. My family thinks I over react to things, everything that I am disturbed with, is an reaction to my action. I have been creaming on top of my head only to make myself heard and understood, but that unfortunately has been misconstrued as just an empty vessel making noise. So much so that I now am believing that perhaps I am the empty vessel.. well I am getting empty. I was also told that I hold on to things way to much, well I only cared. I only wished I got a little more respect in this house that I deserved.
Now I have nothing left in me to fight, me fighting back has created such a rift that now I will just be quiet. and more than that, I will try be calm and control what I speak, in general.
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